Ep 172: "I Yelled at My 4-Month-Old”: The Real Story of Traumatic Birth, Postpartum Rage & Healing

Send us Fan MailWhat do you do when your life starts falling apart?You’re in pain 24/7.You’re not sleeping.Your baby won’t settle.Your nervous system is stuck in survival.Your marriage feels like it’s breaking.And everyone has a different “solution”:pain meds or physical recovery supportpostpartum depression diagnosis + medicationtherapycouple counselingyoga, mindfulness, breathing…But what if you don’t have time to do 10 different things - and none of them are actually fixing the root?In this Zen Supermom Podcast episode, Jacqueline shares her real story: A traumatic birth + months of constant physical pain (and not being believed) The shame of yelling at her baby at just 4 months old Feeling distant, resentful, angry, and “not made for motherhood” How postpartum depression explained part of it — but didn’t solve it Why she kept trying to push through with willpower Why her marriage started falling apart What she uncovered underneath (hyper-achiever + controller patterns, early childhood layers, and deeper trauma) And what changed in just a few months:deep bonding and love with her sonpresence and joy in daily lifea transformed marriage (teamwork, communication, peace)flexibility, less control, and more easeIf you’ve ever thought:“I should be happy… so why do I feel rage?”“Why do I feel nothing with my baby?”“Why is motherhood bringing out the worst in me?”This episode is for you.Support the show