Ep 19: The Night Janine Was a Streetwalker (part two) | Nutty & Slutty with Isadora O'Boto and Janine Noel | Stories on Sex Work and Mental Illness

In this episode of Nutty & Slutty, Janine continues her story about a night in San Francisco when psychosis, confusion and sexual violence collided.Paranoid and psychotic, Janine gets locked out of her apartment wearing just a sweatshirt -- half naked.  With her arm out for help, the public pulled back from her.  Alone at a laundromat, she was approached by a man who offered comfort, then decided to leave the city.  She negotiated that he could come back to her apartment so she could get dressed for this out-of-town party.  Knowing she wanted him to leave and feeling unsafe, she believed she was now stuck in a play, saying lines to him as if it were a performance.What followed left her questioning herself for years: Was it rape if she was confused?  Was it her fault for letting him in? Why did no one in her family name what happened?Through conversation with Isadora, this episode explores consent, coercion, dissociation, trauma, self-blame and the devastating confusion that can follow sexual assault during a mental health crisis.  It is also about the power of finally hearing the words: It was not your fault.This episode is for anyone who has struggled to name what happened to them, especially when mental illness, memory, shame or other people’s silence made the truth harder to hold. Content warning: sexual assault, rape, psychosis, suicidal fear, police/medical response, trauma.Send us Fan MailWelcome to NUTTY & SLUTTYWhere Mental Health, Sexuality and Unfiltered Truth Take Center StageNUTTY & SLUTTY is a bold, sex-positive podcast exploring the messy, complicated and often hilarious intersections of mental health, sexuality and real life — without shame, filters or pretense.Hosted by Janine Noel (living with bipolar disorder) and Isadora O’Boto (ex-escort), this show brings together two radically honest perspectives for conversations that are as raw as they are insightful.  From navigating mood swings and medication to unpacking the realities of sex work and desire, nothing is off-limits._________________________________________________Isadora O’Boto (co-host) is a Juilliard Drama grad.  Under the pen name Sephe Haven, she is the author of two award-winning memoirs: My Whorizontal Life and A Someday Courtesan, and playwright/performer of the solo show: “My Whorizontal Life: The Show!”  Isadora co-hosted the podcast My Index to Sex with Lynn Ferguson.  Find her at: isadoraoboto.comJanine Noel (co-host) is creator and host of Bipolar She podcast, where guests sh...