Ep 30: My Analogies of Grief

Happy Birthday Jake- this one's for you ❤ On December 18th, 2020, my world crumbled into pieces. I learned that two of my best friends died in a car accident. Maddie and I had been best friends for over 15 years. I met Jake in 2017, he went with me to my weekly family dinners and was considered my “adopted brother”. Losing them felt like losing two parts of myself. As the days and weeks passed after their deaths, I found myself racked with thoughts and feelings that no one around me seemed to understand. Everyone seemed to “move on” while I was left crippled with nowhere to go. My life became crowded with people saying all the wrong things. It wasn’t their fault; they didn’t know what to say and I didn’t know what I wanted to hear. In an attempt to process all my new emotions and help others around me understand exactly how I was feeling… I started writing. I wanted to make a way for those who have never lost someone to understand the complexities of what I was going through. I wanted them to better relate to the people they wished to comfort. Above all else, I wanted those that were feeling the same pain as myself to feel understood and validated. Whether you read this and relate to every word reminded of the love you have for those you’ve lost, or you are someone who wants to understand what it must be like to have your world fall apart, these entries are for you.