Ep. 62- Keara's Story

Becky and Tiffany sit down with Keara to share her story of betrayal trauma and healing. Keara shares how her husband disclosed his porn use seven years into their marriage. Every disclosure had her forgiving him instantly and spending all her energy trying to make their home environment tidy and calm. After one particularly painful disclosure, she found she didn't have it in her to forgive. "I was angry with him," she recalls, "and I was angry with God." Over time, as she waded through the hurt and loneliness, she began to understand that "The atonement (of Jesus Christ) is not just for sins. It's for those who have been hurt and sinned against. I saw Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father as loving people who would care for me and love me." Through her husband's work to recover, and her own work (including listening to a betrayal trauma podcast and journaling), Keara began seeing changes in her husband's selfishness that gave her hope. Though there are still recurrences in her marriage at times, things are much more open and honest between them. Keara also now has a lot more patience with herself. When asked how she's finding restoration, Keara shares that through understanding grace and the atonement of Jesus Christ, she is at peace with being herself. She now realizes the Lord looks on the heart.