EP 8【EN】: Someone Hard to Love

I’m recording and releasing this raw episode because I’m overflowing with emotions right now.If you’re Filipino, you might recognize yourself in what I share. If you’re my international friend, I invite you to listen to our story—my story with someone who’s so hard to love, so hard to fight for.I chose to post this here because this heartache has been with me long enough before I decide to take a break from this 'relationship'. As a growing adult and as an occupational therapist who serves children and the community, I’ve carried these feelings deeply for they don't deserve to be growing up in this setup. I believe people must be held accountable, and we need to stand together.Sometimes I wonder: if I have children in the future, will they grow up carrying the same grief I do now? 这期节目，我几乎是带着情绪直接录下来的。如果你是跟我一个地方出生长大的，或许你会在我的故事里看到自己。如果你是我的国际朋友，我邀请你来听听我们的故事——关于那个让我既爱得辛苦，又难以为他撑腰的人。之所以选择在这里分享，是因为这份心痛已经伴随我太久了。作为一个正在成长的大人，也作为一名一直在不同社区陪伴孩子的作业治疗师，我常常感到心里很沉重，因为他们不该在这样的环境里长大。可是现实却如此。我相信，总要有人承担责任，也总要有人站出来。有时候我会想，如果我将来有了孩子，他们会不会也像我一样，带着同样的心痛长大？