Episode 1: Welcome to My Fascinating Experiment

Welcome to My Fascinating ExperimentThis episode opens with a brief reflection I added after the fact — about what I noticed when I went back and listened to the first two episodes, and what I'm committing to doing differently. It's unscripted. It felt more honest than pretending it wasn't there.I've had a vision for about ten years that I wasn't ready to share.Until now.This is the origin episode — the one where I tell you who I am, why I'm here, and what this podcast is actually about. Not the professional biography. The real story: the shame, the experiments, the spiritual awakening I didn't see coming, and the vision that's been quietly building underneath all of it.In This EpisodeI grew up as a highly sensitive person in an environment where I learned early that my job — everyone's job — was to keep a particular family member regulated. That meant not being too loud, having too many feelings, or taking up too much space. I turned perfectionism and striving into a survival strategy. It got me a PhD. It didn't touch the shame underneath.I share how I discovered that the only way through fear is straight through it — and how I tested that theory at a weekly karaoke night, and eventually at a community theater audition I had no business going to and absolutely needed to do. Not to prove anything. As a gift to a younger version of myself who never got to walk out onto that stage.I talk about the spontaneous spiritual awakening that shattered my worldview as a confirmed atheist and scientist — the sunset in Arkansas where the boundary of my personal energy body dissolved, the synchronicities I couldn't explain, and the slow, uncomfortable rebuild that followed. Physics. Ram Dass. Ancient wisdom traditions. Eventually, Human Design.And I share the vision behind everything — a three-phase framework that starts with loving yourself unconditionally, moves into loving another consciously, and extends outward into loving all of humanity. Not as a sequence. As a simultaneous practice.What You'll HearThe childhood experience that became the engine for a career in psychology — and a profound personal shame I couldn't logic my way out ofWhat karaoke taught me about fear, freedom, and the cost of perfectionistic standardsThe audition I went to with a ten out of ten anxiety level — and why I'm so glad I didn't turn around and walk outWhat a spontaneous spiritual awakening actually feels like from the inside — and how a psychologist rationalized itThe Cross of Planning and what it means that its energy is dissolving right nowThe extinction burst — a behavioral psychology concept that explains exactly what we're watching happen in the worldThe Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix and why the void phase isn't a problem to solveWhy Sacred Discomfort is the foundation of everything I teachThe three-phase vision: Love of Self → Love of Another → Love of HumanityWhy this podcast exists now — and what my Human Design has to do with the timingResources MentionedSacred Discomfort — my free offering that teaches you to turn toward what's hard with curiosity and acceptance: soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfortSoul Bloom Coaching — individual and couples coaching, Human Design readings, and more: soulbloomcoaching.com/servicesDayLuna — my favorite Human Design resource: daylunalife.comInvite Me — have a question you'd like me to share my opinions on? Email [email protected] with the subject line: InvitedConnectWebsite: soulbloomcoaching.comEmail: [email protected]: @soulbloomcoachingFacebook: Soul Bloom CoachingThis podcast is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional psychological or medical advice. If you are experiencing mental health concerns, please reach out to a licensed professional.Until next time — be mindful of what you create.