Episode 122: Sex, Shame and Learning to Feel Again in Recovery

In this powerful and tender episode of Fly to Freedom, I’m opening up about something that so many people in eating disorder recovery experience but rarely speak about: intimacy.When your body is changing and you’re learning to feel again, sex and closeness can stir up shame, fear, and deep vulnerability. You might question your worth, wonder how to be seen in your new body, or feel overwhelmed by returning desire. You might even feel numb, disconnected, or unsure how to let someone close when you’re still trying to come home to yourself.This conversation was inspired by a beautiful message I received from someone in recovery—and from my own experience. If you’re struggling with intimacy, please know: you are not broken, and you are not alone.In this episode, we explore:Why intimacy often felt performative or disconnected during the eating disorderHow disconnection, people-pleasing and body shame show up in sexWhat it means when your sex drive disappears… and when it comes rushing backThe nervous system truth behind sudden desire (and why it can feel like extreme hunger)How to stop performing and start feeling again—on your own termsRebuilding safety in your body through small, gentle stepsCommunicating with your partner when you feel too exposed, too emotional, or not enoughLetting intimacy evolve into something real, raw, and deeply healingThis episode is a love letter to anyone who feels confused or overwhelmed by intimacy in recovery. It’s not about getting it perfect—it’s about allowing yourself to be present, vulnerable, and loved just as you are.If you’re feeling messy, unsure or alone in this part of recovery, this is for you.Resources & Support🌿 Join the Eating Disorder Recovery Circle – a private, supportive community where we talk honestly about every part of recovery, including intimacy🌿 Looking for more personal support? Apply for 1:1 coaching with me🌿 Explore the Feelings Navigator to support yourself through discomfort: https://www.edrecoverycircle.com/how-are-you-feeling