Episode 13 - When Your Old Life Calls...

When your old life calls… I share about the my experiences of being in a "liminal space" between who I was and who I am  becoming.  Lessons... There is no "ending" to a healing journey. Emotional flashbacks - where sensations within your body or triggers in environment collapse time and we feel like we did back when the truama first occured. So we lose the sense of reality and who we are now. This is accompanied by the stories and beliefs of that time as well (intense shame, despair, hopelessness etc). My triggers still include certain places, people, or spaces. This can even go back as far as infancy where you could have absouletly no coginitive awareness of the trauma but the body remembers. Grounding in the present and providing assurance is crucial, I saw "This is my truama talking" and then do whatever I feel I need to do to take good care of myself in that moment to assure my body that I am indeed safe now.  Euphoric Recall -  common in both recovery from substances and also in trauma bonded relationships where you put on rose colored glasses and don't remember the destructive parts of the addiction or relationship.  Sit with feelings - not identifying with the story (emotional intense sensations collapse time and make us feel like we are back in the old reality). It helps me to say "I feel scared" and observe the thoughts (that usually aren' even mine).  No feeling lasts forever. It is safe to feel. "That identity is no longer me." "That no longer defines me."  Songs can really transmute & transform our vibe! Do you have a playlist?  "Can't change the past but compassionately witness the present."  Check out Daniela on the podcast in Episode 9 - Freqeuncy, Breathwork & Meditation. Here is more information about Daniella and her programs: https://myinfinitespirit.com/  Walls - Tom Petty https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTwmm_eWwvM  Take Another Piece of My Heart - Big Brother & The Holding Company, Janis Joplin https://youtu.be/AxXg4Irb6yE?si=wDXZ6QtbFaee3dLR  My website: www.Nurse-Jesse.com   Please email me at [email protected] if you / your business are interested in sponsorhsip.