Episode 2 | Internalized Homophobia

We breathe deeply. Internalized Homophobia is a heavy topic, it follows this episode is a sober one. If you are in the right frame of mind, join a discussion of shame, religion, toxic internal dialogue, bi-as, and Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's sexuality. We also talk through eight slices of a self acceptance pie and classic gay childhood moments.... In case you need to hear it. You are gay enough. You are enough, period. You are everything. <3 "I searched google for a poem On releasing internalized homophobia. My search was thorough, Page 2 thorough, But nothing spoke to the scared child inside of me. The one who trembles when I near intimacy with another woman As though at any moment the door will be broken down Our illusion of safety shown thin As muslin screens. At any moment God could rip open a hole inside of me With only his voice. Loud And terrible. Full of wrath Detestable! Abomination! Woe to you! I read nothing, that gave her the feeling She so desperately needed. A thought Offered like a fuzzy blanket. A warm and soft place to be cocooned, To rest. So, Soft child A day will come for us When the cleaver will be melted down No more waiting for the blade to drop. No more shallow breathing and dry eyes As we wait for punishment. No more murky self loathing thoughts. A day will come, When we will beam Pleased for all the world to see us as we are. Alone perhaps, Or with a lover, or family, Or queer friends. All we need is already inside us And is working it's way to the surface. There can be no regrets, When choices are made from a pure heart. Rest now- And when you wake All the world will lie before you. We have all our lives To breathe free." - Gemma Guiomard Hosted by Gemma Guiomard Instagram: guiomard.art & smatteringofheresy Patreon! Music by LesFM on Pixafy