🎙️ Episode 21: Split Churches, Sleds Up a Mountain, and a Sabbath That Won’t Sit Still

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 21Title: Split Churches, Sleds Up a Mountain, and a Sabbath That Won’t Sit StillDescription:It’s Sunday morning. I’m driving through Cincinnati from my parents’ house to Love City Church—alone, a little anxious, and carrying more than just the steering wheel.This episode feels like a tangle of open threads:Old churches. New systems.Family tensions. Crumb delays.And the exhausting war between build now vs wait until it’s ready.I talk through:The tension of attending a church you used to belong to… but now feel weird walking intoThe complicated mix of Catholic roots, Protestant exploration, and being caught in-betweenMy honest frustration about trying to launch CRUMB the right way when everyone wants it fastThe guilt I feel for pausing things like the Daily Crumb podcast and the CrutherhoodWhy I don’t believe in “just start small” if the backend isn’t holy and excellentA word on ADHD, Sabbath rest, family golf, and baby snugglesAnd a gentle confession: it’s hard to slow down when your soul only knows speedThis episode is raw, rambling, honest. Not polished. Not tidy.But sometimes the mess is the confession.💡 Highlights & Timestamps:00:00 – Driving to Love City Church with an emotional fog01:15 – Splitting time between Love City and Catholic roots: “It’s complicated”03:10 – Feeling weird without Crystal, carrying kids’ routines and family expectations04:30 – Launch pressure: Why CRUMB still doesn’t have wings06:45 – “You wouldn’t launch a half-working iPhone…”08:20 – Why I’ve paused posting in the Brotherhood and what I’m building behind the scenes10:15 – The battle between conviction, perfection, and outside advice12:00 – Sabbath rest vs. ADHD restlessness: skipping meds, slowing down14:10 – Playing golf with my dad: nostalgia, resistance, and intentional family time15:40 – Watching my daughter Olive fall in love with baby Hallie16:30 – A final reminder: this isn’t the launch—it’s the labor before birth📖 Scriptures Referenced or Implied:Ecclesiastes 3:1 – “There is a time for everything…”Hebrews 4:9–11 – “There remains a Sabbath-rest for the people of God…”Proverbs 16:3 – “Commit your work to the Lord…”Psalm 127:1 – “Unless the Lord builds the house…”Isaiah 30:15 – “In returning and rest you shall be saved…”🧠 Core Takeaway:“You can’t launch a movement while hiding from your own tension. But you also can’t fake a launch when the wings aren’t built yet.”🙏 Closing Line:Crumb Confessional #21 — where church feels distant, launch feels stuck, and Sabbath becomes a test of trust. Let’s walk anyway.