Episode 22: The Desert of Your Own Making | K.G.I. Podcast

When you start defeating your addictions, you find yourself in the desert of your own making. And the addiction speaks in a Luciferian voice — come back to numbness, nobody will know, why even struggle? In this episode I work through what it actually feels like to embrace solitude when you're fighting yourself, why the spotlight effect is mostly imaginary (nobody is watching as much as you fear), and the cost most addiction writing won't name — that becoming honest with yourself dissolves the relationships built on the previous version of you. I bring in the monastic tradition, the practice of practicing what you want to become, and the closer: once you see your true self in the reflection, you cannot unsee it.My book Mythos: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GX2ZN1TKMy Blog https://kirillkhrestinin.com