🎙️Episode 34b: I Don’t Know How to Relax Anymore

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 34bTitle: I Don’t Know How to Relax AnymoreDescription:It’s still June 12th, and I’m in the car heading to lunch with my dad, his cousins, and my kids. I said I’d take the day off, but now I’m restless. When I don’t have a task or project, my mind spirals into guilt, anxiety, and productivity panic. I’m wrestling with the fact that God may be giving me a green pasture moment—and I don’t know how to lay down in it. This is part two of the battle: trying to relax.I talk about:Feeling anxious when I’m not being productiveStruggling to enjoy rest even when I’ve planned itUndoing hustle culture and “raging through the machine”Confessing I don’t know how to relax anymoreRecognizing how laziness led to bankruptcy in the pastAsking God to either keep or remove the spirit of hustle💡 Highlights & Timestamps:00:00 – Restless on a day off, driving to cousin lunch 01:45 – “What am I not getting done?” mindset kicks in 03:20 – Years of hustle culture programming surfacing 04:55 – “I don’t know how to relax anymore” 06:35 – Comparing Navy SEAL mindset vs green pastures 08:10 – “God, walk-off home run this spirit if you want to”🧠 Core Takeaway:When God finally gives you green pastures, it can be hard to believe you’re allowed to rest in them.🙏 Closing Line:Crumb Confessional #34b — Let’s get all of this in Jesus’ name. Amen.