🎙️Episode 38: It's not easy to quit

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 38Title: It's not easy to quitDescription:I'm parked outside a UDF on Beechmont staring at a cigarette poster that says, "It's not easy to quit." It's a moment of real-time temptation, the kind that used to knock me out. I'm alone in the car, running errands in Cincinnati, and the urge to buy a $5 edible hits hard. I talk about what it's like to still want the old high, to pray sincerely for it to go away—and not feel it lift. But I also share how confession, speaking it aloud, and doing this war journal helps me keep going.I talk about:Seeing the "It's not easy to quit" sign right as I felt temptedWhy Africa was easier: no access, no optionThe tattoo I got for 2 Corinthians 12:7–11How addiction turns into forced prayerWhat happened last time I hid it from my wifeWhy bringing it to light keeps me cleanFighting with truth, Spirit, and spiritual weapons💡 Highlights & Timestamps:00:00 – Sitting at UDF in front of the “It’s not easy to quit” poster 03:15 – Remembering the ease of sobriety in Africa: no access 05:20 – Why I got a tattoo of 2 Corinthians 12:7–11 08:40 – How God uses my thorn to draw me closer 11:10 – The downward spiral when I hide it from my wife 14:55 – Real-time confession helps me resist the edible 17:30 – “If I want to be seen more than be real, I’ll cave” 20:45 – Final prayer: for the addicts, strugglers, and the weary 📖 Scriptures Referenced:2 Corinthians 12:7–11 – "Thorn in the flesh... my grace is sufficient"🧠 Core Takeaway:Temptation doesn't always disappear through prayer—but bringing it to light gives it less power.🙏 Closing Line:Crumb Confessional #38 — I'm trying to model walking out my faith, not by sight.