Episode Ten: The One Where Nobody Told Me I’d Still Be This Bad at Being a Christian

I didn’t expect following Jesus to still feel like this much of a fight. We went in planning to talk about struggle and ended up saying the stuff most people keep to themselves. What it feels like when you keep falling into the same things. When getting back up feels exhausting. When you start wondering if you should be further along by now.And yeah, we said it out loud. Sometimes it feels like prayers go straight to voicemail.Not in a rebellious way. In an honest, “God, where are you?” kind of way.We wrestle with that tension, believing He’s there while feeling like nothing’s changing. Holding onto faith while carrying the weight of unanswered prayers and unmet needs.We don’t tie it up neatly. We don’t fix it.But we do land here. Even if it feels like silence, we’re still getting back up.If you’ve ever felt stuck, tired, or like you’re not measuring up, this one’s for you.