Facing My Shadows: Journal Entry 11

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Beyond the Mud, I dive deep into the battle we all face—between the person we are and the person we want to become. Ever feel like you're constantly running from your past, haunted by mistakes, trauma, and the weight of addiction? Me too. Today, I open up about the painful cycle of overthinking, procrastination, and how years of bad decisions and self-sabotage brought me to where I am now. But this isn’t just about falling down—it’s about getting back up. From having my car repossessed to struggling with my credit, I share the real-life consequences of my choices, and how I’m fighting to change them. I also talk about the surprising clarity sobriety has brought me and what it means to finally face life without the crutches of alcohol and substances. Ten days sober, still juggling life as a single parent, and hustling to figure out my financial mess, I’ve never been more determined to rewrite my story. If you’ve ever felt stuck in your own life—whether you’re battling addiction, dealing with past traumas, or just trying to survive day to day—this episode is for you. It’s real, it’s honest, and most of all, it’s about moving forward. So, grab a seat, hit play, and let’s figure this out together.