Fear is a Bad Bargain: Dying, Deconstruction, and Choosing Life | Alpha's Story

TW: Abuse, Suicide, Death, Birth Trauma, InfertilityAlpha (she/they) was raised in a lineage of deeply conservative Catholics dating back fifteen generations. Their deconstruction and queer awakening happened side by side in high school sparked by compassion for queer friends and a dawning awareness of her own bisexuality.Years later, a near-death experience during childbirth reshaped their beliefs again. Losing her fertility and nearly her life, they found peace in the idea that death is calm and meaning is self-made. "If your structure is suffocating you, get new rules."