Feeling out of control & unhealthy coping mechanisms

In today's episode, I spoke a lot about my final few years in high school and how having bulimia impacted them. Honestly, I would wake up everyday in a frenzy and unsure how I would make it to the end of the day. I spent all day trying to feel in control when in reality I was completely out of control. The thing is, this need for control, it really is a coping mechanism at the end of the day. We hope that if we're in control, if everything is to our liking, if everything is perfect, then we're gonna be ok. But actually the only thing that will make us ok is if we're ok with ourselves. Stop trying to change yourself, to control yourself, and instead embrace yourself for who you truly are. That is the only thing that is sustainable. That is the only thing that is real. You don't need to control anything if you have YOU, trust yourself and follow yourself. I might still be a tad delirious from my cold, but I think I might be potentially making sense. Big kiss, Lydia XX‘Children of Divorce’ is available wherever you get your podcasts, including Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTubeFind me on TikTok & Instagram under @childrenofdivorcepod and @lydianathenson