Fill your wombs!!!

There was a little girl born February 15th 1985. Today is the day that God saw fit to bless her parents to conceive and 9months later here she came. Not a worry in sight. Her parents were best friends because their parents were best friends and here is this beautiful little girl that sealed two families together. Here is this little girl that as she grew up was special had many gifts and talents. Could sing, and was very energetic and brave, shy, bold and caring all at the same time. This little girl had the love of God in her heart at a young age and always shared that love of Christ with everyone she knew. Not knowing what her life would bring just lived life according to her own tune and grew up with many hopes and dreams and even came up with inventions that lie and wait for the right time and right resources but never came to past. You can't choose who God grants to he your family right. This little girl was blessed to have a loving family that did the best they could do. This little girl always knew there was more to this life but just never really knew how to do what needed to be done. This little girl grew up overweight and with low self-esteem and teased and sadden a little about life's issues within the family and also outside the family but always managed to have some joy and never allowed the world to consume her! It's me im her. Today is my birthday I'm 38yrs old! I'm that little girl who still has some hopes and dreams of what I envisioned for myself and some I accomplished like getting a job, helping out my grandma, graduating highschool and college, having a nice paying job, falling in love and getting my hurt torn to shreds and then God sending and angel and mended my heart strings and falling in real love and being a wife and learning myself all over again. I woke up grateful but emotional on my birthday and I got tired of my womb being empty. I've had 4 miscarriages in the natural but a million more in the spirit by way of allowing opportunities to pull myself together out of the ruts life threw at me. I was told I was resilient because I always bounce back after I've been knocked down and you know what I am. Thank you Jesus!!! I will always bounce back because that's how God made me!!! I've held up some of my own dreams because I wasn't feeling confident about how I look physically and I know it's really time to change that. It's been hard and if I may say so sometimes I've given up but not completely but literally just stopped caring sometimes if I'm honest but yet still having a glimmer of hope because I'm believing God for a miracle to yet again burn the weight off again like he did before but I messed it up y'all! I didn't change my eating habits and gained the weight back and now I have the weight on my shoulders and burden on my heart to become a natural mother as I wait for my flesh to catch up with my spirit to reignite this fire that I know burns within me to get up and do something about it. Well I decided today that I will take my life back and that starts now!!! No longer will I sit around feeling sorry for myself. I will enjoy this life that God's so graciously given me and I will fight for my life!!! I will stop self-sabatoge and live on purpose again. I can hear that little girl on the inside of me saying live! For the first time in a long time I will!! Are you tired of being barren not full of the life God has promised you? Not filled with your destiny? It's time to fill our wombs. A womb is a incubator, a life preserver, a life reservoir! Life Springs up out the womb! If you have ever been pregnant in the natural you know what it feels like to have life stirring on the inside and you can't wait to meet your baby. Well what if I told you everyone has been, is and will be pregnant with ideas, visions and answers to life's problems! God is not done with you yet if you are alive. We have to be tired of a mediocre life! I decided that today I will fill my womb with life and stir up those ideas