Finding my sexuality

I have been thru a life long journey trying to find out why I love intellectual connections and emotional connections from the opposite sex. My sexuality is very important because when I know it, it can help me spiritually and most importantly it can help my marriage. what is cheating really? can you connect with women without it being cheating, what is lust really? what is the science behind sex and sexuality. this is what I came up with in dealing with my mindful meditation pertaining to my sexuality 💋👄.