Imagine a line that goes from left to right on the left is the time of your birth and on the right is the time of your death on the extremities. Now the line represents you growing as a person. I've moved one, two, three, three technically four times in the past seven years. And I felt like that has been kind of a cheat code for understanding myself.
How I view the way that I found myself and then how I started understanding myself is like this. Imagine on the straight line that goes from left to right. You start drawing lines that go from somewhere in the line and then go up and stop. And then slightly after that arc kind of stopped, you draw another line that starts on the line and then goes down kind of in a slump and stops.
To know if that makes sense. But basically to me, that's how I view finding, trying to find myself is I'd start being something that would come from a place of who I am and just take it, take it to an extreme where I wouldn't be who I am anymore. And then drop it eventually, whether it be through moving or just through being tight with it, moving really, really helps with it. And finding myself, however you would, is you stay on the line and you might kind of go up a little bit, go down a little bit, but you always stay kind of centered to that line.
If the line was in 3D, it'd be like a snake going around it and through it and around it and through it and slowly just zoning it on the line, just zoning and just getting closer and closer to the line. So basically how I view, how I've lived my life so far is I've had a lot of lines that start in the middle and go up. And every time I moved, I've been able to re-center myself and try to find myself. So I have a bunch of those lines, especially when I moved the first three times.
And the fourth time is when I started to have a line and find myself. I have a line that instead of starting on the line and then going up in an arc and stopping, the line kind of just started going up the line, going a little bit up, just circled around the line and is starting to zone in, just starting to stay on the line now. I feel like I'm in the process of finding myself now, understanding myself and not finding myself in the differences when you're finding yourself, you're trying to figure who you are in the sense of your most fundamental needs and core values. And I figured out I feel like one, at least, of my core needs and at least one of my core values.
And I know them for sure. And I have an idea of what I want out of life. It's not very precise, but it's an idea. And from that, I'm able to make at least a plan for myself of how I can try to live a good life.
So because of that, I feel like now I'm just in the process of finding myself, which is a process that's never going to end. But not finding, understanding I'm feeling confused. I'm in the process of understanding myself, but not finding who I am. And I understand that those are in the semantics of it.
You can just change those and it would still make sense. But I'm making a point of not necessarily in the words I'm using, but in the concepts that there are two different concepts. And I think that for a lot of people, it kind of works that way. You play around with who you are, but then when you start really understanding your needs, at least one of your core values and what you want out of life, then that's when you start zoning in on who you are.
And you might even have a slip up or two or even maybe more. But once you really understand the things I talked about, to me, that's a point of no return. That's when you've opened the door and you just can't go back. Don't know if that made any sense, but thanks for listening to Myel therapy and have a great day.