Fix Your Face

Most leaders know they're supposed to stay composed. Very few talk honestly about how hard that actually is, or what it costs when you don't.Ryan Calkins and Erny Epley get into the part nobody puts in a leadership manual: the moment your face says everything your brain didn't mean to share. They're both people who wear their emotions visibly, and this conversation is the kind you'd have if you actually had colleagues willing to be honest about it.Erny breaks down his most recent stumble with this — a confrontational meeting where someone put their hand on his leg and whispered "relax" because his whole body had already given him awayRyan shares the "fix your face" mantra that a coworker gave him early in his career, and how he still reaches for it in high-stakes meetings todayThey walk through what it felt like to lose composure at a public board meeting, on camera, with the superintendent watching, and what the fallout actually looked like afterwardThe difference between emotional authenticity (an asset) and unfiltered reaction (a liability), and why conflating the two can quietly stall a careerPractical resets: physical anchors, preparation tactics, and how choosing the right place to vent can reduce the pressure that builds up before the moment you need to hold it togetherThis isn't about becoming someone you're not. It's about leading with intention when your instincts want to take over."Leading ain't easy, but you don't have to do it alone."Leading Ain't Easy was created by Ryan Calkins and Erny Epley, and is hosted by Ryan and John Moore.Ryan is the founder of Reframe & Rise, where he works with veterans who transitioned successfully but still feel something's off; helping them find alignment, not just a better job title.John is a certified life and career coach with 20+ years of experience helping people navigate transitions, find purpose, and lead with intention — drawing on backgrounds in corporate leadership, counseling, and entrepreneurship.Erny runs Bus Pro Network, supporting school transportation leaders across California with training and development, and joins the show as an occasional guest.Subscribe on Apple, Spotify, or wherever you listen. Follow us on LinkedIn and Instagram for clips, prompts, and behind-the-scenes updates. If this episode resonated, please leave a review as it helps more leaders find us.