Focus on GOD

1. I’m happy I allowed myself to vent. No everyone doesn’t care and some people don’t empathize with others but realizing I posted this to be transparent to help someone else. So for the folks who have it all together, this episode isn’t for you. But for the STRONG girl who has to be strong all the time. This is for you. For the men who weren’t heard as boys, this is a safe space for you to cry. We are human. 2. I have accountability and I can pin point my weak points. I’m not innocent in this process. I’ve done wrong. But it was a time I would be so sweet, I believed in people. A lot of people have disappointed me and it makes me feel like the human race as a whole is SHIT. But I know it’s people that are FOR ME out there. I have friends who are amazing. But we aren’t on a everyday basis. Realizing my everyday friend now is GOD / Jesus and he’s always there. He always has time for me. 3. The seed example I gave is real. Maybe I’ve been planting seeds in the wrong soil. So putting the wrong care, love, attention into the wrong people. 4. Im going to work on praying, journaling more, and not saying I’m fine. But actually expressing what I feel in that moment when asked the question, “How are you?” 5. It sucks to love someone that you can’t be with. But realizing it’s better to have loved and felt it even if hurt was a cost I have to pay now. 6. I believe God but I’m going to have to actively work on seeing it. Seeing the life I deserve. 7. I know loving myself is the key. But it’s easier said than done. People who have relationships love telling someone whose lonely to love their self. Like ok it’s easy for you to say you have someone to go home to. But everything isn’t what it seems. I want a marriage/ relationship that isn’t for the socials. But that’s genuine and real. I refuse to settle and have to ask/ tell someone how to love me. So here’s to shifting my focus back to God and welcoming in my grieving process to let go and heal from everything I feel. I love you Telisia, if nobody else does. I do love you and I’m trying to heal the little girl inside and I’m not perfect but I’ll keep fighting for you. Because you are worthy of a fight. Sending everyone love, light and hugs. Keep going. You deserve the happiness, the love, the career, home, car and kid. And you WILL get it. You WIN in the end! Remember that. 🙏🏽❤️