For the Days Everything Feels Heavy

This is the start of something I wish existed when I needed it the most.I am 28, but it genuinely feels like I have lived so many versions of myself. Every struggle, every shift, every phase just shapes you into someone new. And for the longest time, during my hardest moments, I felt like I had no one I could truly relate to.Yes, friends are there. Yes, sometimes they are not. But when you are alone in your room and everything feels heavy, even the smallest problems feel huge. And even when I tried to look for support online or in groups, I just could not find anyone whose experiences felt like mine. I started seeing myself as an outsider. I kept telling myself that I should act a certain way, think a certain way, be a certain way, because that is what everyone else seemed to be doing.When I look back now, I can see how those moments built me. Those hard days were stepping stones. And even though I am still struggling and I know there will be more ahead, I want this series to exist for people who feel the same way I did.I want anyone watching this to know they are not alone. Even if you feel different or disconnected, there are always people somewhere in the world who would understand you. Sometimes God helps you through people. Sometimes through moments. Sometimes through animals. Sometimes through something as small as a video that feels relatable in a way nothing else did.These are pieces of my journals. My reminders. My own notes to myself about the pearls that came out of every hardship. And if this reaches even one silent fighter who needs to feel less alone, then it is worth it.And yes, you’ll see Cleopatra in the middle because she decided to interrupt me while I was recording. Maybe that was also a reminder that comfort sometimes looks like a cat asking for food whenever and wherever she wants it 🐈P.s. And if my story resonates with you, go listen to the people living theirs - Sit With Aqsa, my other podcast, linked in this episode.