From Party Girl to Peptide Queen: I was chasing my glow up in the wrong bottle

I used to be the girl ordering rounds of Patrón at last call. Nobody asked for them. Nobody needed them. But everyone was getting them because that's just who I was. Fast forward to now: in bed by 9pm, injecting myself with peptides, texting my husband about our keto macros. Same obsessive energy. Completely different protocols.This episode is the honest, funny, and surprisingly emotional story of going from party girl to peptide queen: what the drinking was masking why quitting didn't magically fix everythingthe social identity crisis of becoming the one who leaves at 10pmmy tea-in-the-beer-bong bachelorette party moment and what's genuinely changed my health after years of surgeries, specialists, and nobody having answers.Also: I rolled my eyes at Ruby Warrington's Sober Curious when it came out in 2018. I am now the person she wrote it for. I owe her an apology.This is not an episode telling you to stop drinking. It's an episode about what's on the other side of the thing you think is helping you cope, and why the hunger for aliveness was always the real point. My story, my journey, my healing.Mentioned: Sober Curious by Ruby WarringtonPrograms and ResourcesAFTERGLOW → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/afterglow-waitlist-pageFREE Chiron Report to Find Your Shadow → https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFollow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes → https://www.instagram.com/mogarzMy websites → https://lovelightandblackholes.com → https://morgangarza.com/Get my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/