Fuck love in the fuckface

I am in two unconventional romantic relationships and they’re both antagonistic right now. While I am working on my own shit and in particular overcoming my own cowardice I am frustrated that I’m not in relationships where they are willing or able to meet me on that same level. I also talk about sex and blowjobs and Tinder but this is more towards the autobiographical rather than the titillating or philosophical.