Going to Amsterdam was a Life Changing Choice

The 2 weeks before Molly died was rough - to say the least. I debated if I was going to go to Amsterdam with Roy. I told Doug I was quitting my job and got him out of my life. I disappointed my kids and argued with Kenny. Each one of these choices proved to be life changing. In this episode, I explore the sadness and self-hatred I have in the aftermath.    Key Takeaways:    [5:08] Molly and Gracie's dance competition  [7:20] Molly doing theater and the headaches getting worse  [8:14] Doug kept piling extra work on me  [9:29] Doug wouldn't stop texting me while I was with Roy  [11:06] Doug kept wanting to drink tons of alcohol with me [12:13] Spending time with Doug instead of my kids  [13:36] Triangulation and narcissism in my life [17:12] Telling Doug I quit  [17:54] Arguing with Roy about going to Amsterdam  [21:20] Doug going on a rampage, Molly getting sick, and tough choices  [23:18] I still have so much sadness and self-hatred [24:06] The doctor saying Molly had an eating disorder  [25:00] I got a passport, but also planned to not go to Amsterdam  [25:32] Telling my kids I was going to Amsterdam  [27:59] Molly and Gracie were not happy I was leaving  [30:12] Going to the airport with Roy  [32:36] Enjoying my time in Amsterdam, but arguing with Roy  [33:44] Suddenly feeling like something is deeply wrong  [36:07] Staying with Roy an extra night would be a regret  [37:33] Waking up to 65 texts about Molly being sick [39:11] Molly not waking up  [41:03] Telling Roy that Molly's dead  [42:36] I blocked Doug and didn't contact him  [43:01] Roy apologized to Molly [44:23] Looking back and feeling insulted   [45:14] Robin supported me while Molly was dying [46:48] Arguing with Kenny during that week  [49:10] Looking back on my choices    Resources:   POWER Book    Connect with Barb:   Website   Facebook    Instagram   YouTube   The Molly B Foundation