Grass Widow Legacy

On this Sunday evening, I begin my podcasts of the Grass Widow Legacy: GWL20230122 When I gave up on my marriage and at the prompting of my husband, I went back to my home church. My Pastor counseled with me one time. I don't remember us addressing my hidden sins or asking about or receiving forgiveness, or any prompting from Biblical stories on what I was going through. Only I know what I was going through. That is, my Lord, Savior, and Christ in me knew what was happening. I thought I needed freedom from the sinful world I had become a part of and the only way to get that was to say "I don't love you any more." I remember my Pastor's reply that I would not be a Biblical widow, but a "grass widow" and those words stuck. Many years later, a dear Saint wrote "The Widow's mite" for the Harvest Gleaner Hour, now "Lifeword." The past few months, I have been laying down my burdens, remembering Job 13:23 KJV How many are mine iniquities and sins? make me to know my transgression and my sin. Tonight my prayer is: Psalm 4:1-8 KJV Hear me when I call, O God of my righteousness: thou hast enlarged me when I was in distress; have mercy upon me, and hear my prayer. [2] O ye sons of men, how long will ye turn my glory into shame? how long will ye love vanity, and seek after leasing? Selah. [3] But know that the LORD hath set apart him that is godly for himself: the LORD will hear when I call unto him. [4] Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah. [5] Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the LORD. [6] There be many that say, Who will shew us any good? LORD, lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us. [7] Thou hast put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that their corn and their wine increased. [8] I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.