Grief, Jealousy, and Everything I Pretend I'm Fine About

In this episode, I open up about the parts of grief I don’t always say out loud the jealousy I feel sometimes, the confusion I still sit with, the impulsive decisions I made while trying to survive, and the quiet moments where everything hits me all at once. I also share something my therapist pointed out to me that I use laughter as a defense mechanism and how that truth made me start paying closer attention to myself in ways I can’t ignore anymore. From coming home to an empty house, to realizing how deeply I still feel the absence of my husband in everyday life, to unexpectedly feeling joy and sadness at the same time while celebrating my daughter’s last day of school… this episode is about what it actually looks like to live inside grief while still showing up for life. I talk about what it means to slowly feel like myself again, without pretending I’m the same person I was before loss. This isn’t about moving on. It’s about learning how to live in the in-between where love, grief, joy, and pain all exist at the same time. And somehow still choosing to keep going. website: www.msjonespodcast.com email: [email protected]