Grief, Surrender and Getting On With It, with Janelle Brunton-Rennie

Janelle Brunton-Rennie became a widow within a year of her husband Kurt first finding a lump. She had a newborn baby at home, and no warning that losing her spouse to cancer was about to unravel her whole life. New Zealanders who've followed Janelle's story over the years will know pieces of this. In this episode, she courageously takes us back to all of it, and beyond.The hospital corridor where a doctor asked if her husband had a will. The anger that nobody tells you is part of grief, and the gym sessions that became her only outlet for it. The small rituals, sunrise, espresso, stillness, that carried her through years one and two of grief when nothing else could.We also talk about what came after. Rebuilding trust in yourself when you've had zero control over the worst thing that's ever happened to you. Making peace with a worst case scenario before you know the outcome. And what it actually takes to let love back in without losing who you became through grief and loss.This one is gut wrenching in places, and takes some genuinely unexpected turns into faith and spirituality.In this episode:Janelle's story of becoming a widow and losing her spouse to cancerThe anger stage of grief nobody prepares you forThe daily rituals that rebuilt her sense of self after lossRebuilding self trust after losing control of everythingFaith, surrender and what "making peace" actually meansLetting love in again after grief