Half Of Me

I’m not depressed right now, I’m actually in really great spirits but it’s very frustrating when I’m in a conversation with somebody that doesn’t believe in depression or thinks it’s a weakness or feigned sickness. This is my attempt at explaining how depression feels... _____________________________You’d be amazed at how many buildings I fell off today, how many grounds I almost grabbed how many times I almost made myself the candle the melted the inevitable collapse that follows a successful run. another thing I cannot celebrate it hurts to be standing– even worse laying down it’s like I’m being force-fed my own heartbeat I don’t like it. I don’t like it. You’d be amazed by my brain… how it tells me to leave no directions just—— leave.