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EPISODE · Dec 26, 2025 · 9 MIN

Hidden grief after miscarriage and abortion

from The Doula Johanna Podcast: Keeping Death Close. Living More Fully. · host Johanna Canady

There are losses no one ever knew about. The pregnancy that ended before you could tell anyone. The abortion you chose in an impossible situation and still think about years later. If you are quietly grieving a miscarriage or abortion while everyone around you is oblivious, this conversation is for you. In this video I share my own experience of early loss and what I have learned as a birth doula and hospice trainee about the invisible grief so many mothers carry. This is not a debate about right or wrong. It is a gentle space to put words to what happened, to normalise your feelings and to remind you that you do not have to carry this alone, especially during the holidays when the pain can feel even sharper. You will hear about: how early miscarriages and abortions can feel very similar in a mother’s heart. why your mix of grief, relief, guilt, anger or numbness is a very human response how common hidden pregnancy loss and abortion really are why you owe no one your story, and why telling one safe person might hurt less than you think This channel, Keeping Death Close, Living More Fully, exists to honour the hard, hidden parts of life so that we can live with more honesty, tenderness and courage. If this video speaks to you, you are so welcome here. 1:1 doula support Supporting mothers through miscarriage, abortion and other forms of pregnancy loss is also part of doula work. If you would like someone to listen without judgement and with an open heart to your story, you are very welcome to reach out to your local doula or to me personally. You can contact me here: 📩 Email: [email protected] 📸 Instagram: @doulajohanna Online sessions are possible, and if you are near Munich we can explore in-person support. Join the No Regrets Women’s Circle If you are looking for a non-judgemental online community of women who want to live as intentionally as they can, you are invited into the No Regrets Women’s Circle. We talk about body and health, money and work, relationships, fun, and also about grief, legacy and all the tender in-between spaces. Learn more and join here: 🌿 No Regrets Women’s Circle: https://the-no-regrets-womens-circle.mn.co/users/onboarding/plans?auto_join=true&from=https%3A%2F%2Fthe-no-regrets-womens-circle.mn.co%2F%3Fautojoin%3D1&space_id=21977603 If you feel comfortable, you can share in the comments by simply writing “I am remembering someone” or leaving a heart. You do not have to tell your whole story for your grief to be real. Thank you for being here. Hashtags #invisiblegrief #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #miscarriagegrief #babyloss #abortion #abortiongrief #earlypregnancyloss #griefsupport #doulasupport #birthdoula #deathpositive #intentionalliving #womenscircle #noregretswomenscircle Welcome to my channel. I am Johanna, a former molecular biologist turned birth doula and hospice volunteer in training. I create weekly videos to help women in midlife live with more intention, softness and depth by keeping the end in mind and noticing the beauty of our ordinary days. If you are an expat preparing to give birth in Germany: Birth Doula Support in Munich https://doulajohanna.com/birth-doula-support/ Customized Childbirth Preparation (English-speaking) https://doulajohanna.com/contact/ 🌙 If you are exploring end of life reflections, legacy and living more fully: End of Life Doula Support (Munich area) https://doulajohanna.com/death-doula-support/ 💛 A new community is coming soon A space for mothers in midlife who want to live with presence, meaning and as few regrets as possible. https://doulajohanna.com/community/ 📬 Stay connected Newsletter with reflections, tools and updates https://dashboard.mailerlite.com/forms/777532/153375709920757750/share Find me here Instagram: https://instagram.com/doulajohanna Website: https://www.doulajohanna.com Etsy resources: https://www.etsy.com/shop/DoulaJohanna Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7KcnWjJieuLm5aYJfFSoqT Apple Podca

There are losses no one ever knew about. The pregnancy that ended before you could tell anyone. The abortion you chose in an impossible situation and still think about years later. If you are quietly grieving a miscarriage or abortion while everyone around you is oblivious, this conversation is for you. In this video I share my own experience of early loss and what I have learned as a birth doula and hospice trainee about the invisible grief so many mothers carry. This is not a debate about right or wrong. It is a gentle space to put words to what happened, to normalise your feelings and to remind you that you do not have to carry this alone, especially during the holidays when the pain can feel even sharper. You will hear about: how early miscarriages and abortions can feel very similar in a mother’s heart. why your mix of grief, relief, guilt, anger or numbness is a very human response how common hidden pregnancy loss and abortion really are why you owe no one your story, and why telling one safe person might hurt less than you think This channel, Keeping Death Close, Living More Fully, exists to honour the hard, hidden parts of life so that we can live with more honesty, tenderness and courage. If this video speaks to you, you are so welcome here. 1:1 doula support Supporting mothers through miscarriage, abortion and other forms of pregnancy loss is also part of doula work. If you would like someone to listen without judgement and with an open heart to your story, you are very welcome to reach out to your local doula or to me personally. You can contact me here: 📩 Email: [email protected] 📸 Instagram: @doulajohanna Online sessions are possible, and if you are near Munich we can explore in-person support. Join the No Regrets Women’s Circle If you are looking for a non-judgemental online community of women who want to live as intentionally as they can, you are invited into the No Regrets Women’s Circle. We talk about body and health, money and work, relationships, fun, and also about grief, legacy and all the tender in-between spaces. Learn more and join here: 🌿 No Regrets Women’s Circle: https://the-no-regrets-womens-circle.mn.co/users/onboarding/plans?auto_join=true&from=https%3A%2F%2Fthe-no-regrets-womens-circle.mn.co%2F%3Fautojoin%3D1&space_id=21977603 If you feel comfortable, you can share in the comments by simply writing “I am remembering someone” or leaving a heart. You do not have to tell your whole story for your grief to be real. Thank you for being here. Hashtags #invisiblegrief #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #miscarriagegrief #babyloss #abortion #abortiongrief #earlypregnancyloss #griefsupport #doulasupport #birthdoula #deathpositive #intentionalliving #womenscircle #noregretswomenscircle Welcome to my channel. I am Johanna, a former molecular biologist turned birth doula and hospice volunteer in training. I create weekly videos to help women in midlife live with more intention, softness and depth by keeping the end in mind and noticing the beauty of our ordinary days. If you are an expat preparing to give birth in Germany: Birth Doula Support in Munich https://doulajohanna.com/birth-doula-support/ Customized Childbirth Preparation (English-speaking) https://doulajohanna.com/contact/ 🌙 If you are exploring end of life reflections, legacy and living more fully: End of Life Doula Support (Munich area) https://doulajohanna.com/death-doula-support/ 💛 A new community is coming soon A space for mothers in midlife who want to live with presence, meaning and as few regrets as possible. https://doulajohanna.com/community/ 📬 Stay connected Newsletter with reflections, tools and updates https://dashboard.mailerlite.com/forms/777532/153375709920757750/share Find me here Instagram: https://instagram.com/doulajohanna Website: https://www.doulajohanna.com Etsy resources: https://www.etsy.com/shop/DoulaJohanna Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7KcnWjJieuLm5aYJfFSoqT Apple Podca

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