housekeeping, deep clean part one

Because of the amazing efforts of my friend and the GoFundMe she set up to have my apartment deep cleaned We started today! So I thought I would document that for the donators to that particular gfm. But I also thought regular listeners and donators to my GoFundMe for the treatments that keep me alive would like to hear about it. Especially how it is such a critical support. And also some of the internalized ableism and disability bias I have going on around housekeeping. some part of me still thinks that I can do it which isn't true. And empirical evidence shows it isn't true. And outrageous pain and exhaustion shows that it isn't true. But still some part of me believes that. anyway the child like delight I feel at having just this beginning part of getting my apartment clean made the Also delighted. They said it made them feel really appreciated Especially that I made up the clean floor song lol