How Dimming My Light Almost Cost Me My Life | Self-Abandonment, Self-Worth & the Choice to Come Back

S2E38: I Was Dimming My Own Life - The parts of me I buried to survive were the very parts that made me feel alive.What if nobody else has to dim your light...because somewhere along the way, you learned to reach for the dimmer switch first?In this deeply personal episode of the Coming Home to You Sparkcast, Margarita Rose explores a realization that changed the way she sees self-love, healing, and personal responsibility:I wasn't just dimming my light. I was dimming my life.Little by little, pieces of her disappeared.Her voice.Creativity.Music.Dancing.Joy.Spirituality.Desires.Boundaries.Dreams.Truth.Not all at once.And not because she didn't care about herself.Some of those layers were built for very understandable reasons: to survive, belong, stay safe, avoid rejection, protect against abandonment, keep relationships intact, and become whatever seemed necessary in the moment.But eventually, protection can become a prison.In this raw Wild Truth, Margarita looks honestly at depression, numbing, self-abandonment, worthiness, sacrifice, resentment, fear, old survival strategies, and the painful places where she kept looking outside herself for the person or circumstance responsible for giving her life back.And then came the harder realization:What if I have been waiting for someone else to stop dimming me while I am still abandoning myself?This isn't about blaming ourselves for what happened to us.It's about recognizing where our power lives now.Because awareness gives us another choice.To notice.Pause.Return.And make one Better-Than choice that moves us closer to the life we actually want to be present for.You'll also leave with a practical Coming Home Practice from Margarita's Bag of Tricks to help you notice where you've been making yourself smaller and begin reclaiming one piece of yourself at a time.You don't have to suddenly become louder.You don't have to perform your healing.You don't have to prove how bright you are.You simply get to stop abandoning the parts of you that make you feel alive.If you recognize yourself in this conversation, subscribe and share this episode with a sister who has spent too much of her life believing she had to disappear in order to belong.Your story matters.Your voice matters.Your joy matters.Your life matters.And you are still allowed to come home.Social captionI used to think dimming my light meant other people couldn't handle me.Maybe they thought I was too much.Too loud.Too emotional.Too creative.Too spiritual.Too opinionated.Too... me.And yes, there have been places where being fully myself didn't feel safe.But eventually I had to ask a much harder question:Where am I reaching for the dimmer switch first?Because I realized I wasn't only dimming my light.I was dimming my life.My music.My dancing.My creativity.My joy.My voice.My dreams.My needs.My truth.Piece by piece, I had learned how to disappear while still technically being there.And this isn't a story about blaming myself for how I learned to survive.It's about recognizing that once I can see the pattern...I have choices.I can honor the woman who learned to make herself smaller.And I can stop asking her to run my life.I don't need to perform my light.I don't need to prove my healing.I don't need everybody to understand me.I just need to stop abandoning the things that make me feel alive.Maybe you do too.If you see yourself in this one, send it to a sister who needs the reminder:You are still here. Come home.#sparkcast #cominghometoyou #cupofawakening #soulsparkyourlife #soulsparksanctuary #margaritarose #empoweredwomen #womenwhorisetogether #abetterthanchoice #youareenough #embodiedleadership #selfabandonment #selflove #selfworth #chooseyourself #dimmingyourlight #authenticity #healingjourney #traumahealing #peoplepleasing #findingyourself #reclaimyourlife #cominghometoyourself