How should I listen? listener question

I have been studying 3P for two years now. Via a podcast by Nicola Bird I found your book REAL. Read it, like it. But two weeks ago I read it again and it hit me like a brick. I have read many 3P books, and I understand it. But now all of sudden it saw it on a next and deeper level. So I joined your one month program. And strangely enough (I am at day 6 now) most of it is over my head. The videos and the live talk. I like it, but what are they saying? But in your book I understand almost everything.  Feel and see it deeply, I can feel the peace. What's the difference? Listening to your program gives me a good feeling. That's what you should look for Syd Banks said. Should I listen to it like music. Without trying to understand and enjoy the ride? That's the thing to do now? Hope you can give me a small hint 😊