How to Feel Right Now

Sometimes I don’t know what’s happened today, or I know, but I’d rather not.The moment is so fraught and the consequences so big that turning away sometimes feels like an option. But turning away from the external - turning off the news, turning off my phone -is one thing. Deciding to stop checking in inside - stop pausing, stop taking a breath and observing how the moment feels, which is how to investigate a state of heart, state of mind is another. I feel like I can take a break from the external and still know what’s important in the large sense, and what to do next. When I turn away from the internal it’s almost impossible for me to know how I’m doing. Which makes it hard to know what’s important in the moment. And without knowing that, how can I know how to proceed?