How To Suffer

I want to get out of my brain that's where I keep the shame I want to get out of my head and into a fresh one instead Maybe I can find a way to wash my mind join a cult or maybe an army Got a little heavy there, sorry Everything is sunshine and roses Don't think about the oceans and I'm always writing songs about myself but you're the one with your hopes up on the shelf there's a difference between what I want and what I get happiness is how to suffer and be okay with it maybe I don't want to be happy maybe I don't want to be content And maybe you heard the words but still don't know what I meant