hypnotize myself (living puff)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3vD1DTDftzfkYdKaPzlxNx?si=d36f607751c046e3 There's no room for me up at the table Even though I'm always at the head chair Like I'm flipping through channels with no cable Waiting for somebody else to care enough To pull me up, take your medicine Yeah you might get better feel adrenaline What do you about you know about what's fair 12 count by the way you stare Up that dose and cause catastrophe Hypnotize myself with a flashing light and hope it goes away Didn't choose to stay awake at night I think that's outta my range No I don't wanna burden anyone with how this feels My eyes are burning cartilage bursting who does that appeal to Is it you is it you don't you feel the same old pain Around me no not me I'm not one to stay the same Gotta change it up, no I'm not sad I just got good luck And those times you see me whilin See the struggle through the smilin once again I'll look down inside and say I guess it's all of my fault Hypnotize myself with a flashing light and hope it goes away Didn't choose to stay awake at night I think that's outta my range No I don't wanna burden anyone with how this feels My eyes are burning cartilage bursting who does that appeal to Is it you is it you don't you feel the same old pain Around me no not me I'm not one to stay the same