I am grieving a marriage I needed to leave- with Tara Pavlovic

Tara Pavlovic is a Gold Coast-based content creator and mum of two who recently announced her separation — and the response from women everywhere made it clear this conversation needed to happen.Rachel and Tara get into what the lead-up to leaving actually looks like from the inside. The years of therapy. The panic attacks. The couples counselling that didn't save the marriage but mattered anyway. The Fiji holiday they booked because they knew they could still have a good time together. And the moment Tara's body made the decision before her mind was ready to.They also go somewhere neither of them planned — into what it does to a woman's sense of self when she realises her version of the marriage and his were two completely different realities. And what it means to lose trust in yourself so completely that you can't imagine ever choosing again.Honest, raw, and at times genuinely surprising. This one will probably make you cry at least once.In this episode:Why the hardest part of leaving isn't what comes after — it's the decision itselfWhat couples counselling actually does when it doesn't save the marriageHow alcohol can hold a relationship together — and what happens when it's goneThe moment the panic attacks became impossible to ignoreWhy she doesn't believe anyone will truly love her nowWhat it feels like to lose all trust in yourself after a marriage endsWhat Tara would say to any woman sitting in that dark place right nowFind Tara: @tarapavlovic Now What is hosted by Rachel Maksimovic. Follow @rachel.maksimovic & @nowwhat.podcast on Instagram.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.