I Am Schizophrenic and I Write with It

let’s talk about why my schizophrenia is confusing to peopleEcho’s Journey - I Love HerI talk about Echo being crazy. She is. More than I ever was. She has always been an enflamed version of everything I go through into overt psychopathy and healing it the same — through action. Echo is my favorite character I will ever write. I will never love a character more. She is the woman inside me who was made and then died waiting for someone to help her grow up.I did not love Echo, as is clear in Human Fire Power, until I fell more in love with her than anything I’ve ever created. I call that chapter forty-six. I’ll never get that far again intentionally. It’s chapter forty-six. I’ll just skip it or something if I have to.Human Fire Power (formerly The Foundry) - Chapter Forty-Six: https://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/the-foundry-part-four-chapter-forty-d58?r=2cd8qtEcho’s Journey - Echo Wants to DieThe end of Time Bellows Gasoline (formerly Time Throws Fire) was abrupt and unexpected. I wrote my final chapter like I write all my final chapters—all night long, until the break of dawn.It was after I posted it, and was listening to the song at the end as I laid down for sleep I realized the book was over and it was the most effective ending I could ever imagine. It’s about suicide. I realized how badly I needed help from someone else for how much I wanted to kill myself fighting alone too long.Time Bellows Gasoline (formerly Time Throws Fire) - Chapter Fifty-Sixhttps://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/time-throws-fire-part-ten-chapter?r=2cd8qtEcho’s Journey - Echo’s DeathNothing has ever been done that was sadder than this. I killed Echo, before going into a court session where I was choosing not to fight, so I didn’t look crazy through my executive dysfunction, and just plead for mercy with the truth.I killed Echo in the hardest, best-fought crying session I think I’ll ever have to write through. It was a really incredible thing to do. I was giving up my fighter for trying to change the world with the irredeemably hardened psychopath Rory clearly is.Time Throws Fire (formerly Part II) - Chapter Fivehttps://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/time-throws-fire-volume-two-chapter-f5e?r=2cd8qtJournal on Echo’s DeathDoing this a schizophrenic woman who loves her character like I do, as they are a part of me, makes the process alchemical within my growth as a human. I’ve lived this in an emotional way none might imagine but me.This is my video journal recorded just after writing it.https://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/video-journal-cosmonaut?r=2cd8qt&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=webEcho’s Journey - Echo’s FuneralPoe Becomes the Lead in My Heart, we start revealing Echo loved a psychopath who was fooling The Foundry named Rory, Funeral speaks truth.Time Throws Fire (formerly Part II) - Chapter Sixhttps://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/time-throws-fire-volume-two-chapter-cb7?r=2cd8qtEcho’s Journey - Rory’s RecompenseThis was my court date. Like ten minutes afterwards the thought came through. ‘What am I going to do? - Yup, Rory’s Gonna Die’It was immediate. And I was legit stoked to write.Time Throws Fire (formerly Part II) - Chapter Sevenhttps://www.daphnegarrido.com/p/time-throws-fire-volume-two-chapter-a1d?r=2cd8qt&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit opheliaeverfall.substack.com