I blamed myself when he couldn't get hard - Martyna

Martyna is a 29-year-old, cis-gender woman who describes herself as white, heterosexual, monogamous, and in a relationship. She grew up in Poland and now lives in South Africa. Martyna deals with depression, and she talks today about how that has affected her relationships and sex. She also talks about how the season 1 STARS episode affected her thinking about how to talk about consent. You can find that episode at https://www.leahcarey.com/podcast/episode-8a-bonus-the-stars-conversation Major themes in this episode include depression, learning about consent as an adult, and exploring BDSM. Martyna's first sexual experiences – by herself riding pillows, then playing with another little girl The lessons she learned growing up Polish Catholic Securing contraception in secret Growing up with an alcoholic and emotionally abusive mom, and her teen rebellion Martyna's sense of shame around losing her virginity Finding herself sexually, her exploration on the rebound Martyna's first experience of real consent conversations and the play that lead to her sexual awakening Her intro to BDSM Her masturbation to achieve orgasm when it wasn't present in sex How depression has affected her sex life The relief of giving up control during sex More specific details about her sexual activities with her current partner   Audio extras for this episode are: An extended conversation about how the culture of different countries plays into gender roles and relationship expectations Martyna talks more about the specifics of her BDSM activities with her partner The extended Q&A   Update:  Since this episode was released, the podcast has concluded. Here's how you can find me now: Book a FREE no-pressure intro consultation Keep up to date and get your FREE Three-Minute Game All my classes and downloads are at my store Any audio extras for this episode on the Good Girls Talk About Sex website Here's everything I'm up to today I no longer use Patreon — you can now support my work on Substack   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak