I can feel you breathing | Dearest Beloved 2026.03.13 | DB-017 | SSU-029

🎧 Prefer to listen?Press play above. ⏯️Listen faster or slower if you like.3/13/2026 4:44 PMDearest Beloved,You know what I realized today?Somewhere in this big, spinning world… you are walking around living your life completely unaware that a woman out here already loves the soul of you.And that thought makes me laugh a little.Because if you knew… if you could see me right now… you might look up at the sky and say,“Wait… who is this woman who’s already writing love letters to me?”And I would answer very simply.“It’s me.”The funny thing is, I don’t feel crazy when I say that. I feel peaceful.For the first time in my life, love doesn’t feel like something I’m trying to catch before it runs away. It feels like something that already exists… like a current in the ocean that is gently pulling two people closer without either of them forcing it.And I can feel that current.Yesterday something happened that made me pause for a moment.I had a feeling. An old feeling.Not a dramatic one.Not one that shouted.Just one of those quiet little nudges that tapped my heart and said… something beautiful is unfolding.And with that feeling came a vision.I could see us in another lifetime… sitting together, breathing.That was our intimacy.Breath meeting breath.We were close… deeply close… but we weren’t allowed to love each other physically in that lifetime. So the way we loved each other was through presence… through breath… through simply existing beside one another.And for a moment yesterday, I felt that again.It was like I could feel us breathing together right now… across time… across space… just sharing that quiet connection.And I thought to myself, this is so beautiful.Just breathing together.But then I caught myself and laughed a little and said,“Wait… no, no, no, no…”Because that’s not all I want.This lifetime isn’t just for breathing together.This lifetime is for loving, too.For laughter and touch and long conversations and the simple joy of being able to look at each other and say, “We don’t have to hold back anymore. We can express it fully.”And somehow that realization didn’t feel impatient.It felt joyful.Like two souls who once had to whisper their love are finally allowed to speak it out loud.So until that moment arrives, I’ll keep doing what my heart knows how to do best.I’ll keep singing my songs. My love songs for you.I’ll keep following the little nudges that feel like sunlight on my path.And every once in a while… I’ll send a love letter like this one out into the universe.A paper airplane made of breath and hope and laughter.Maybe one day it lands right in your hands.And when it does, my beloved, I think we’ll both smile… because something inside us will already know.As I speak this love letter to you, I feel a song, or maybe two, right here in these words.We have been breathing together for a very long time.And now… we finally get to love.All my love,LanaLove💋(The timer on the audio recorder read 5:55 as I hit stop after reading this.)Seeking Sacred Union: The Love Story + Movement is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Get full access to Seeking Sacred Union: The Love Story + Movement at seekingsacredunion.substack.com/subscribe