I Feel Guilty for Having a Brain

In this week's episode of The Nick Speaks Podcast, I get emotional as I open up about something that has weighed heavily on my heart since Thursday night. After attending a Halloween party with everyone from my home healthcare agency, I came home struggling with feelings I never expected to have. Being surrounded by individuals with different physical and intellectual disabilities made me reflect on something deeply personal. Some people are physically able but mentally disabled, some are physically disabled but mentally enabled, like me, and others are both physically and mentally disabled. Seeing everyone at that party affected me in a way I still struggle to put into words. My heart has been incredibly heavy ever since, and I've found myself wrestling with emotions that I don't fully understand. That night, I found myself asking God a question I never thought I would ask: Why didn't You make me like them? I actually found myself feeling guilty for having a brain and the mental abilities that I do. It's a difficult feeling to explain, and throughout this episode, I attempt to process those emotions openly and honestly with you. Please hear my heart in this episode. This conversation comes from a place of love, compassion, and a genuine struggle to understand why I've been given the abilities I have when others face such different challenges. A quick clarification: Throughout this episode, I occasionally refer to the Halloween party as happening on Friday night. However, the party actually took place on Thursday night. I go back and forth between the two days during the conversation, but Thursday is the correct day. If this episode touches your heart, please like, follow, and share The Nick Speaks Podcast. Leave us a five-star rating on your favorite audio platform, and don't forget to like the episode and subscribe to our YouTube channel! For questions, podcast guest appearances, or speaking engagement inquiries, email me at [email protected].