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EPISODE · May 4, 2026 · 45 MIN

“I Just Wanted to Be Loved”: How Childhood Loss Shapes The Way We Chase and Sabotage Love

from It Ends With You · host Patricia Diaz-Kismarton

In this episode of It Ends With You, we explore the first phase of cycle-breaking: Awakening; the moment you begin to notice that something doesn’t feel right anymore, even if you can’t fully explain why.Melanie shares her deeply personal journey of growing up with loss, loneliness, and the impact it had on how she showed up in relationships. From intense jealousy and fear of abandonment to overgiving and losing herself in the need to be loved, she reflects on the patterns she carried for years without fully understanding them.Together, we explore what it takes to name these patterns for what they are, and how awareness, though uncomfortable at first, becomes the doorway to change. Melanie also shares the turning point that helped her build a healthy, trusting relationship, and how doing this work is now shaping the way she shows up as a parent.This is a conversation about self-awareness, honesty, and the freedom that begins the moment you stop fighting for love, and start seeing the patterns behind it.This episode is part of the Awakening phase of cycle-breaking.Support the PodcastYour support means the world and is deeply appreciated. If this resonates, click follow and leave a review to help spread the message of It Ends With You. Disclaimer & ResourcesThis podcast is intended for personal reflection and educational purposes only and is not a substitute for therapy, medical care, or professional mental health support.If you are looking for deeper support in the cycle breaking and parenting space, you can explore coaching and resources at www.branchout.life and follow along on Instagram at @branchout.life.It Ends With You - The journal, for interrupting inherited patterns.  

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In this episode of It Ends With You, we explore the first phase of cycle-breaking: Awakening; the moment you begin to notice that something doesn’t feel right anymore, even if you can’t fully explain why. Melanie shares her deeply personal journey of growing up with loss, loneliness, and the impact it had on how she showed up in relationships. From intense jealousy and fear of abandonment to overgiving and losing herself in the need to be loved, she reflects on the patterns she carried for ye...

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