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EPISODE · Apr 1, 2026 · 48 MIN

I Know This Is Wrong, But…

from Spicy Spectrum · host Pepper Kat

How are you enjoying the episodes? Send a message!What He's Thinking Substack: https://thespicyspectrum.substack.com/p/he-knows-its-wrong-so-why-does-heIn this episode of Spicy Spectrum, I get into something a lot of people feel but don’t always say out loud.The “I know this is wrong, but…” part of desire.I’m joined by Lucy Baldwin, who works with shadow work, existential kink, and understanding the deeper patterns behind human behavior. Together, we explore what it really means to face the parts of ourselves we usually avoid, especially when it comes to attraction, shame, and the things we’re told we’re not supposed to want.We go beyond surface-level takes and get into how unconscious patterns shape desire, how judgment keeps people stuck, and why acknowledging these parts of ourselves can actually lead to more self-awareness and control.I also feature a Spicy Confessions: Dreamgirl Hotline submission that brings this topic into real life. A listener shares their experience navigating emotional connection with a creator who may be shifting toward using chatters, raising questions around authenticity, emotional labor, and what it means to be a “good fan.”I break it down from both sides and share my perspective on boundaries, connection, and the reality of burnout in the adult industry.If you’ve ever questioned your desires, felt conflicted about what you want, or wondered what’s really going on underneath attraction, this episode is for you.Learn more about Lucy Baldwin’s work: https://www.remolinacoaching.com/ Support the show🏆 Pre-Nominate Spicy Spectrum for AVN Awards hereCashApp: $PepperProductions | Paypal | Throne: Pepper Kat - Wishlist | Throne📺 Spicy Spectrum is on YouTube → Subscribe here 💜 Step Into Your Experience with Design Your Dreamgirl® → Learn More 🎙️ Get Pepper's Perspective | Book your private audio Perspective Session🌙 Spicy Spectrum After Dark - Enjoy exclusive bonus content → Join Patreon📖 Read What He's Thinking | Explore exclusive insights → Read on Substack📬 Join our Email List → Sign up here and never miss an episode.🎙 Step Into Spicy Spectrum Live | Monday at 7 PM ET  → Watch LIVE on TikTok☎️ Be Part of the Show — Dreamgirl Hotline - Have a spicy confession?  → ...

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How are you enjoying the episodes? Send a message! What He's Thinking Substack: https://thespicyspectrum.substack.com/p/he-knows-its-wrong-so-why-does-he In this episode of Spicy Spectrum, I get into something a lot of people feel but don’t always say out loud. The “I know this is wrong, but…” part of desire. I’m joined by Lucy Baldwin, who works with shadow work, existential kink, and understanding the deeper patterns behind human behavior. Together, we explore what it really means to face t...

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