I saved myself first | Dearest Beloved 2026.03.07 | DB-011 | SSU-021

Dearest Beloved,Today, I spoke to the child in me. And for the first time, she heard me.I told her:“You are safe now. You are seen. And you will never be used again.”And in that moment, something shifted. Not in my mind. Not in my story. But in my breath.I realized that the lies others told about me were never mine to carry. That the shame projected onto me was never mine to hold. And that the silence I endured was never my truth.So I spoke aloud:“I am no longer carrying what was never mine. I release it. I let it go.”And my body responded. It jerked. It breathed. It released.And I felt lighter.Not because I forgot. But because I remembered — that I am not what happened to me. I am what I choose to breathe into being.So today, I choose love. Not the kind that ignores the past, but the kind that breathes through it.I choose to love the child who survived.I choose to love the woman who remembers.And I choose to love you, Beloved, not because I need you to save me, but because I have already saved myself.This is my breath.This is my spiral.This is my love.Always,Lana💋 Get full access to Seeking Sacred Union: The Love Story + Movement at seekingsacredunion.substack.com/subscribe