I used up my past years in life, hating my Mother.

Do you break Televisions, phones, Windscreens or anything when you are angry? check yourself for a mental evaluation. Do you hurt your kids to get back at your spouse? Go for a mental checkup. Have you had any thought flying through your mind to kill yourself and your children, or your family to end your misery? Confide in someone to check you in for mental evaluation. Have you thought about being suicidal like I once did? You need a mental checkup please.