I Was a Christian Therapist Addicted to Psychiatric Medications—Here's What Finally Set Me Free

What happens when the man everyone turns to for healing is secretly breaking down?Dr. Mark McNear was a respected Christian therapist. But behind closed doors, he was overusing psychiatric medication to numb deep childhood trauma. In this raw episode, he shares how a confrontation with a psychiatrist forced him into rehab, how his family met his confession with grace, and how Jesus met him in the middle of his shame—not after he cleaned up.This is a story of grace, healing, and learning to feel safe in your own skin.Timestamps 00:04 – The double life of a therapist 01:24 – What people didn’t see 02:34 – Justifying the medications 06:24 – The turning point: “You need rehab” 08:03 – His wife's gracious response 09:07 – His daughter’s encouragement 12:47 – Childhood trauma resurfaces 15:20 – Learning to trust safe people 19:24 – Wrestling with God's presence 21:07 – Jesus asks, Do you want to get well? 27:10 – Learning to feel safe in his body 32:09 – Why Jiu-Jitsu became healing 36:15 – Final encouragement to menKey Quotes I was dripping with shame. Addiction lied to me and told me I was fine. No one told me I was traumatized. Grace showed up before I believed it could. God didn’t wait for me to clean up. He met me in the mess.Resources & Links Website & Coaching: www.markmcnear.com Book: Finding My Words: A Ruthless Commitment to Healing Gently After Trauma Scripture Referenced:Romans 2:4Ephesians 2:10Psalm 36:9John 5:6Call to ActionIf this episode resonated, don’t keep it to yourself. Share it. Reach out to someone. Even just one person. You are not disqualified. God’s grace gets the last word.Subscribe to the Shame(less) Podcast and follow us for more stories like this.