I Was Terrified To Admit I Felt Depressed Ep: 130

A few weeks after my son’s birthday, I found myself waking up every morning feeling exhausted, fearful, hopeless, and overwhelmed by an emotion I was terrified to name.In this episode, I’m sharing what shifted when I finally stopped resisting my emotional experience and stopped turning it into my identity.This episode is about the difference between experiencing an emotion and becoming it.I talk openly about what it was like moving through the emotions of grief, depression, anxiety and hopelessness. I explore how fear of difficult emotions can create even more suffering, and why so many high performers unconsciously believe that acknowledging pain means becoming consumed by it.I also share the role the Judge saboteur was playing for me, the stories I was telling myself about what my emotions meant, and the practical ways I had to start supporting myself through one of the hardest emotional periods of my life.So many people are silently fighting their emotional experience instead of allowing themselves to feel and move through it. And often the suffering is not just the emotion itself, it’s the judgment layered on top of it.If you’ve ever:felt afraid of your own emotionsbelieved acknowledging depression would make it permanenttried to “fix” yourself instead of feeling what you're feelingused overworking, scrolling, or staying busy to avoid difficult emotionsstruggled to separate what you feel from who you are…this episode is for you.In this episode, I cover:the difference between “I am depressed” and “I am experiencing depression”how the Judge saboteur turns emotions into identitywhy resisting emotions creates more sufferingthe role of self-pity and self-sabotage during difficult periodshow sleep, boundaries, and honest self-support became essential for mewhy healing can begin when we stop being so afraid of our emotional experienceChanging your relationship with what you feel is different to changing how you feel.You can find out more about working with me at www.kayaramjee.com