Intensity and duration of reaction - listener description

One message some of your podcasts emphasize is that the identity, and what's believed, is in the reactions to things. So when you encourage us to get as close to life as possible by jumping in and doing whatever it is - we can see what's true and what isn't true based on what the reactions are.Today I received news that I've been hired to receive a short term work situation that will pay me the most money for a single job I've made in my life (thank you for these teachings as I think they've contributed to the receptivity for this moment). What I noticed was a storm of emotions: ups and downs and wild swings. It was almost like a snowglobe of emotions. And lots of crying. Or if you sped up a soap opera and watched it really fast. Yet none of them "stuck" if that makes sense. My interpretation of things you've said is that if there's a strong reaction then this is indicative of a lot of identity being believed. What about when the reactions are both strong and also fleeting? That seems to indicate loosening instead? The crying seemed to be healing somehow. Like it's not personal how we get paid or don't get paid. I don't have words for it.