Introduction to my stresses, secrets, thoughts and my life

I introduce you to snippets of my life, what's happening today, whats happened in the pass, touching upon childhood, domestic abuse, some things about my membership in the lds church, my faith, my thoughts... today i am pretty distressed and wanted to just offload some stuff to anyone wantjng to listen to someone elses problems. I am a cheerful, happy go lucky person but i have had my fair share of struggling with my mental health and sensitivities, but overall believing in God and that he does bless me and watch over, but i often lack faith that i am deserving of happiness or love and blessings